找自己

陶喆-找自己

昨天晚上做了个梦　我走进撒哈拉沙漠　空无一人站在太阳下
摄 氏六十六点六度　快要焚化我的眼珠　突然一场大雨降下来
汗水被那雨水冲走　结束四十天的折磨　荒漠一转变成了绿洲
彩虹下有一棵大树　 大树上有一颗苹果　咬下一口我就全明白
可不可以让我再　让我再一次　回到那个美丽时光里　找自己

哗啦啦啦啦啦　天在下雨
哗 啦啦啦啦啦　云在哭泣
哗啦啦啦啦啦　滴入我的心　oh yeah~
不用说我只会胡思乱想　不用跟我说我只会妄想
哗啦啦啦啦 啦　让我去淋雨
我只希望能够再　能够再一次　回到那个美丽时光里　找自己

挤在公车像个沙丁鱼　上班下班每天是规律　这么多的 人到哪里去
每个面孔写着无奈　爸爸妈妈彼此没有爱　难道这就是生命的真理
可不可以让我再　让我再一次　回到那个美丽时光里　去逃避

躲 在我的屋檐下面　OH~
睡在我的被单里面　OH~
听着细雨滴滴答答　滴滴答答　滴滴答答

不知成几何时，发觉我迷失了自我，迷失了自己。
一直跟着别人的尾巴，被别人牵着鼻子走。
要找回自己 找回自我
不是为别人而活
要为自己的精彩而生活
加油！！

当爱与不爱

黃威爾-愛與不愛

天天一起看海 脱离现实的存在
我们牵手拥抱 填满了空白 很愉快

和你一起计划将来 做你最好的依赖
但未来没有来 打算打不开
沉默暗示你不想等待

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛
我们都无话可说
有过多少快乐 就有多少痛
都在揪着

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛
不要松开我的手
故事走到最后 也许还没最后
不要带走 你的天空

爱情已被现实摔坏 痕迹都留不下来
我们像是小孩 现在才明白
眼泪诉说你想要离开

不想說明 只想反應

陳奕迅：无人之境


讓理智在叫著冷靜冷靜　還恃住年少氣盛
讓我對著 衝動背著宿命　渾忘自己的姓
沉睡的凶猛在蘇醒　完全為你現形
這個世界最壞罪名　叫太易動情　但我喜歡這罪名

驚天動地　只 可惜天地亦無情
不敢有風　不敢有聲　這愛情無人證
飛天遁地　貪一刻的樂極忘形
好想說謊　不眨眼睛　這愛情無人性

若 世界陷進大騙局裡面　朋友亦難以發現
共你隔著空在秘密通電　挑戰道德底線
如若早三五年相見　何來內心交戰
我信與你繼續亂纏　難再 有發展　但我想跟你亂纏

驚天動地　只可惜天地亦無情
不敢有風　不敢有聲　這愛情無人證
飛天遁地　貪一刻的樂極忘形
好 想說謊　不眨眼睛　似進入無人境

即使間整個約會情調幽暗似地下城
還是算溫馨　多麼想跟你散步橋上把臂看著風景
但是我清醒 　月亮總不肯照亮情慾深處那道背影
你我像快快樂樂同遊在異境　浪漫到一起惹絕症

不想說明　只想反應

Girls' talk

It's been long. really really long.

This 20 minutes. Not too long. Not too short.
But it's enough. We chatted, we laughed, we shared, we had fun.

That's what I have been missing all the while, since I came back.

*would be better with comfy couch + refreshing liquor. :p*

I am SO looking forward for the perhentian trip! please make it work~~

执着

太刺激了！！！不到一个月又有一桩喜事！！！真期待下个月轮到谁。。。呵呵
不过。。昨晚有个朋友告诉我他们分手了。。。。世事难料。。。

做人无须太过于执着。

珊分析，

以她本身为例，
她父母亲很执着于成绩学业，但她成绩总是平平无奇，过得去更毕业了。

我们的朋友，
她父母很开通，怕她女儿很宅，总要她多看世界，但她成绩就属厉害。

我们的朋友，
她家教甚严，保守派，在家乖乖女，在外世界女。

我再加以研究，

我的朋友，
他父母不允许在学交往，他偏偏从小瞒住家人，偷尝爱情果。

我的朋友,
他家境中上，要什么给什么，但给他一笔钱，他会一毛也不花，全数奉还。

做人真的无须太过于执着。
太过于执着，通常都会产生反效果，事与愿违。

也许我不可太过于执着于我的原则，我真的很怕我得到的会是相反与我想要的。
那大锅了！！
天灵灵地灵灵

Read the past.

It's been quite some time since i came back from Australia. Just tonight I finally have to mood to clear off the mess in my room. As usual, piles and piles of rubbish to throw away.

In the afternoon, my mum just asked me, what was inside those shoe boxes that are hiding at a small corner of my room. A layer of dust covered the surface. Blow away the dust, opened it up, OH a box full of envelopes!

Yup those are my letters/cards collection. I have collected them since I moved to KL in 2003.

A cute birthday card made by Khai Xhuen, written by all of my collegemates in 2006.


The drawing that Shan drew to me in 2008. Illustrating the distance between she and me when i was doing my intern in hometown. Sabah is a state of Malaysia k! =)


From one of my close friends during my form 1 and form 2, look at the date, it was written in 2002!

HAHAHAHAHA I was the luckiest one for that christmas in 2007, but the one who got my gift was the unluckiest one. You should know who you are huh? HAHAHAHAHA

Small pouch made by Mui Yen in 2004, for my birthday! It got dirty due to my poor handling. :S

Looking back at all those letters, cards, notes and small gifts, they lead me all the way back to respective years. They sort of recorded the bits and pieces of my life. And i found out that is one thing i never change since last time, I LOVE complaining! HOHO. I have so many unsatisfaction in life meh???

I used to write this kinda snail mail before the high popularity of ICQ or MSN. The internet connection was so suck back then. Jaring dial up. Does anyone here still using Jaring now? My constant pen pal was my primary school mate, Suk Ling. We are no longer using snail mail to keep in touch, but we have another way of keeping in touch. We shared alot, we bitched alot. She was and she is still the source for knowing more updates from hometown. We used to send letter very often to each other, constantly sent small lovely gifts, eventhough the gifts were so small, nothing at people's eyes, but they meant alot to me! some of them I still keep them til now! I remember, everytime after school, the first thing after stepping out from school bus, was to peek into the pigeon hole and checked if i'd got a mail! Whenever the envelope had my name on it, it did really brighten up my day! The excitement was undescribable!

The excitement is decreasing day by day. I don't peek into the pigeon hole that often anymore. The peeking excitement switches to opening email inbox. However, both excitements are incomparable. I still love reading people's handwriting. I find handwriting can express the full real feelings and emotions of the writer more, compare to dull emotionless typewriting.

I hope the amount of letters and cards I got is still counting!

hope. unchanged.

Know what.

Sometimes, I feel that I should
1. Never go to Melbourne, OR
2. Never come back to Malaysia

p/s: Are you (still) with me?~~*

Simply because I care.

on the 12th march,

Kwong wrote:

自己很在乎的
發現
原來沒有人在乎

朋友
我又有多少？

Direct translation:
I do care alot
But I just realise
There is actually nobody even want to bother about it.

Friends,
How many do I have?


Somehow, I have the same thought over the past few days. I was putting myself into a deep thinking moment just to find out the exact explanation and number. I told myself before, when you are actually treating people well, never ever expect for return. I treat you good, simply because I care for you, I feel happy for doing so. I can swear to god, I have no unfavourable intention behind.

When you find that there is no friends going the same way with you, maybe you should slow down your pace, your friends are walking too slow. Or perhaps, you are walking too slow, you should speed up a little bit to catch up with your friends. It's all about tolerance. Do not just think about you yourself, sometimes, you should also put yourself in somebody's shoes, and think with his/her mind. Then you will realise that, the way that somebody's think is not the same like how you think about that somebody. That somebody might have his/her personal reason for thinking in that way. Do not walk in front of your friend, Do not walk behind your friend, instead you must walk parallely with your friend!

Friends are actually all around you. They might not be appearing when you are in deep shit, but you should know they are always there for you! At least, I will always be available for you! 24 hours on call! =)

=x

True friendship comes when the silence between two people is comfortable.

When we don't talk, or rather seldom talk, hope that you know what's in my mind. The mutual understanding and faith we have on each other is enough for us to communicate without opening the mouth.

To my friends.

When I cry, you help me out.
When I talk, you hear me out.
When I grin, you know that I am mad.
When I'm happy, you hear me shout.
When I'm sad, you can tell.

As we grow older. The amount of friends we have might increase as time goes by, but which of those are actually willing to sit down and talk to you? listen to your grumbles? solve your doubts? cheer you up when you have a really bad day?

I was once like to celebrate my birthday with bunch of friends, as much people as possible, the more the merrier. Celebrate new year eve or christmas eve at some crowded place, squeezed with sweary wet bodies, spraying form to strangers or cars. Outing with a lot of people, keep calling and messaging people to come for gathering.

The me now, finds that, actually, whenever you go out with a lot of people, eventually, those people will separate into small groups and chat among their groups. So what's the point of gathering all the people at the first place? Some people might be entertained, some might be just get ignored. Why not make it small, so every participants can involve, and make every outing a meaningful one!

Come back to the number of friends part, real true friends that willing to share and listen, you do not need so many of them, 1 is enough, if you are lucky, you might have few of them.



Real true friendship is hard to find. When you have one, appreciate it!! =)
Yes I appreciate YOU!