Monday, April 12, 2010

不想說明 只想反應



陳奕迅:无人之境


讓理智在叫著冷靜冷靜 還恃住年少氣盛
讓我對著 衝動背著宿命 渾忘自己的姓
沉睡的凶猛在蘇醒 完全為你現形
這個世界最壞罪名 叫太易動情 但我喜歡這罪名

驚天動地 只 可惜天地亦無情
不敢有風 不敢有聲 這愛情無人證
飛天遁地 貪一刻的樂極忘形
好想說謊 不眨眼睛 這愛情無人性

若 世界陷進大騙局裡面 朋友亦難以發現
共你隔著空在秘密通電 挑戰道德底線
如若早三五年相見 何來內心交戰
我信與你繼續亂纏 難再 有發展 但我想跟你亂纏

驚天動地 只可惜天地亦無情
不敢有風 不敢有聲 這愛情無人證
飛天遁地 貪一刻的樂極忘形
好 想說謊 不眨眼睛 似進入無人境

即使間整個約會情調幽暗似地下城
還是算溫馨 多麼想跟你散步橋上把臂看著風景
但是我清醒  月亮總不肯照亮情慾深處那道背影
你我像快快樂樂同遊在異境 浪漫到一起惹絕症

不想說明 只想反應

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Girls' talk

It's been long. really really long.

This 20 minutes. Not too long. Not too short.
But it's enough. We chatted, we laughed, we shared, we had fun.

That's what I have been missing all the while, since I came back.


*would be better with comfy couch + refreshing liquor. :p*

I am SO looking forward for the perhentian trip! please make it work~~

Friday, April 9, 2010

执着

太刺激了!!!不到一个月又有一桩喜事!!!真期待下个月轮到谁。。。呵呵
不过。。昨晚有个朋友告诉我他们分手了。。。。世事难料。。。

做人无须太过于执着。

珊分析,

以她本身为例,
她父母亲很执着于成绩学业,但她成绩总是平平无奇,过得去更毕业了。

我们的朋友,
她父母很开通,怕她女儿很宅,总要她多看世界,但她成绩就属厉害。

我们的朋友,
她家教甚严,保守派,在家乖乖女,在外世界女。

我再加以研究,

我的朋友,
他父母不允许在学交往,他偏偏从小瞒住家人,偷尝爱情果。

我的朋友,
他家境中上,要什么给什么,但给他一笔钱,他会一毛也不花,全数奉还。

做人真的无须太过于执着。
太过于执着,通常都会产生反效果,事与愿违。

也许我不可太过于执着于我的原则,我真的很怕我得到的会是相反与我想要的。
那大锅了!!
天灵灵地灵灵

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Read the past.

It's been quite some time since i came back from Australia. Just tonight I finally have to mood to clear off the mess in my room. As usual, piles and piles of rubbish to throw away.

In the afternoon, my mum just asked me, what was inside those shoe boxes that are hiding at a small corner of my room. A layer of dust covered the surface. Blow away the dust, opened it up, OH a box full of envelopes!


Yup those are my letters/cards collection. I have collected them since I moved to KL in 2003.

A cute birthday card made by Khai Xhuen, written by all of my collegemates in 2006.


The drawing that Shan drew to me in 2008. Illustrating the distance between she and me when i was doing my intern in hometown. Sabah is a state of Malaysia k! =)


From one of my close friends during my form 1 and form 2, look at the date, it was written in 2002!

HAHAHAHAHA I was the luckiest one for that christmas in 2007, but the one who got my gift was the unluckiest one. You should know who you are huh? HAHAHAHAHA

Small pouch made by Mui Yen in 2004, for my birthday! It got dirty due to my poor handling. :S

Looking back at all those letters, cards, notes and small gifts, they lead me all the way back to respective years. They sort of recorded the bits and pieces of my life. And i found out that is one thing i never change since last time, I LOVE complaining! HOHO. I have so many unsatisfaction in life meh???

I used to write this kinda snail mail before the high popularity of ICQ or MSN. The internet connection was so suck back then. Jaring dial up. Does anyone here still using Jaring now? My constant pen pal was my primary school mate, Suk Ling. We are no longer using snail mail to keep in touch, but we have another way of keeping in touch. We shared alot, we bitched alot. She was and she is still the source for knowing more updates from hometown. We used to send letter very often to each other, constantly sent small lovely gifts, eventhough the gifts were so small, nothing at people's eyes, but they meant alot to me! some of them I still keep them til now! I remember, everytime after school, the first thing after stepping out from school bus, was to peek into the pigeon hole and checked if i'd got a mail! Whenever the envelope had my name on it, it did really brighten up my day! The excitement was undescribable!

The excitement is decreasing day by day. I don't peek into the pigeon hole that often anymore. The peeking excitement switches to opening email inbox. However, both excitements are incomparable. I still love reading people's handwriting. I find handwriting can express the full real feelings and emotions of the writer more, compare to dull emotionless typewriting.

I hope the amount of letters and cards I got is still counting!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

hope. unchanged.

Know what.

Sometimes, I feel that I should
1. Never go to Melbourne, OR
2. Never come back to Malaysia

p/s: Are you (still) with me?~~*

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Simply because I care.

on the 12th march,

Kwong wrote:

自己很在乎的
發現
原來沒有人在乎

朋友
我又有多少?

Direct translation:
I do care alot
But I just realise
There is actually nobody even want to bother about it.

Friends,
How many do I have?


Somehow, I have the same thought over the past few days. I was putting myself into a deep thinking moment just to find out the exact explanation and number. I told myself before, when you are actually treating people well, never ever expect for return. I treat you good, simply because I care for you, I feel happy for doing so. I can swear to god, I have no unfavourable intention behind.

When you find that there is no friends going the same way with you, maybe you should slow down your pace, your friends are walking too slow. Or perhaps, you are walking too slow, you should speed up a little bit to catch up with your friends. It's all about tolerance. Do not just think about you yourself, sometimes, you should also put yourself in somebody's shoes, and think with his/her mind. Then you will realise that, the way that somebody's think is not the same like how you think about that somebody. That somebody might have his/her personal reason for thinking in that way. Do not walk in front of your friend, Do not walk behind your friend, instead you must walk parallely with your friend!

Friends are actually all around you. They might not be appearing when you are in deep shit, but you should know they are always there for you! At least, I will always be available for you! 24 hours on call! =)

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

=x

True friendship comes when the silence between two people is comfortable.

When we don't talk, or rather seldom talk, hope that you know what's in my mind. The mutual understanding and faith we have on each other is enough for us to communicate without opening the mouth.

Friday, February 26, 2010

To my friends.

When I cry, you help me out.
When I talk, you hear me out.
When I grin, you know that I am mad.
When I'm happy, you hear me shout.
When I'm sad, you can tell.

As we grow older. The amount of friends we have might increase as time goes by, but which of those are actually willing to sit down and talk to you? listen to your grumbles? solve your doubts? cheer you up when you have a really bad day?

I was once like to celebrate my birthday with bunch of friends, as much people as possible, the more the merrier. Celebrate new year eve or christmas eve at some crowded place, squeezed with sweary wet bodies, spraying form to strangers or cars. Outing with a lot of people, keep calling and messaging people to come for gathering.

The me now, finds that, actually, whenever you go out with a lot of people, eventually, those people will separate into small groups and chat among their groups. So what's the point of gathering all the people at the first place? Some people might be entertained, some might be just get ignored. Why not make it small, so every participants can involve, and make every outing a meaningful one!

Come back to the number of friends part, real true friends that willing to share and listen, you do not need so many of them, 1 is enough, if you are lucky, you might have few of them.



Real true friendship is hard to find. When you have one, appreciate it!! =)
Yes I appreciate YOU!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009



哭砂-黄莺莺



你是我最苦涩的等待
让我欢喜又害怕未来
你最爱说你是一颗尘埃
偶而会恶作剧的飘进我眼里
宁愿我哭泣 不让我爱你
你就真的像尘埃消失在风里
难得来看我 却又离开我
让那手中泻落的砂像泪水流
你是我最痛苦的抉择
为何你从不放弃飘泊
海对你是那么难分难舍
你总是带回满口袋的砂给我
难得来看我 却又离开我
让那手中泻落的砂像泪水流

风吹来的砂落在悲伤的眼里
谁都看出我在等你
风吹来的砂堆积在心理
是谁也擦不去的痕迹
风吹来的砂穿过所有的记忆
谁都知道我在想你
风吹来的砂冥冥在哭泣
难道早就预言了分离

classic classic. add on to my k-song list!!!!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

uncertain...........

有种莫名的感觉
是奇妙的?
是伤感的?
是失落的?
是兴奋的?
是亢奋的?

不确定

可以肯定的是
那是负面的

是压力?是家事?是功课?是人事?

到底为了什么?

我不知道

很想找个角落
或一个陌生的地方
逃离这一切
痛痛快快地哭一场
再回来做回平常的我

可是我哭不出来。。。。。

其实我很不想在别人面前将自己最软弱的一面呈现出来
我不需要别人可怜 不需要别人担心
只是偶尔想释放一下 就好
借我肩膀靠就好


当眼泪静悄悄从我脸颊滑过
请不要问我为什么
好吗?