uncertain...........

有种莫名的感觉
是奇妙的？
是伤感的？
是失落的？
是兴奋的？
是亢奋的？

不确定

可以肯定的是
那是负面的

是压力？是家事？是功课？是人事？

到底为了什么？

我不知道

很想找个角落
或一个陌生的地方
逃离这一切
痛痛快快地哭一场
再回来做回平常的我

可是我哭不出来。。。。。

其实我很不想在别人面前将自己最软弱的一面呈现出来
我不需要别人可怜 不需要别人担心
只是偶尔想释放一下 就好
借我肩膀靠就好

当眼泪静悄悄从我脸颊滑过
请不要问我为什么
好吗？

It doesn't matter!

Already gone - Kelly Clarkson

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, Oooo, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone...

p/s: something that is gone, just leave it, and let go. Don't suffer over it, but get through over it. It is not worth to even cry over it.
You are not alone, and i am always be with you~

Not yet a shopaholic!

Please control meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

Been spending for too much in the past few weeks.

Went to adidas factory outlet last monday. AiFang and BaoLi got the voucher of 40% off for every adidas products. Sia predicted that none of us will buy anything there except AiFang. Surprisingly, everyone of us bought things. I bought a laptop bag. Original price was $120, and it is having 40% off right now!!!! Took me a longgggggggggggggg while to consider. They all persuaded me to buy it. and gosh i really got it! Easily to get influenced.

The next day, happily bringing my new bag to maccas, i think there was where i lost my mp3. Did not zip my bag properly. Although i am still not sure where did i lose it. But i was pretty sure i cant find it anymore after coming back from maccas.
MOURN FOR MR BEAN pleaseeeeeeeeeee. and My good-base-sound hook earphone. Sad case.

Okay. then i got myself an ipod shuffle. a red one. Reason why getting the red instead of any other colour? Red is special, can only buy it from apple retail shop. Wanted to get creative. When i asked the salesperson of dick smith, she said creative is totally out of business. HUH? i thought creative is selling quite good in malaysia. The disadvantage of ipod is it does not have radio function.

Been eating out for quite often this sem. The groceries i bought, start rotting at home. And i still keep on buying new things every week.

The moment you pay with cash or card, the moment the cashier passes you the shopping bag, the moment you open it and take a look of your stuff to make sure it is safely and securely kept inside the bag, the moment you hold it in hand and bring it back home. Those moments are very satisfying and super excited!

Behind the scene,

The moment you get online and check your account balance, the moment you withdraw money from atm, the moment you cut off the tags, the moment you take a serious look at the thing you just bought, and the moment you start to think carefully "why are you so special til i need to get you with such a price?" "how long are you going to serve me?". Those moments are so complicated and indescribable.

OH SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. Control me pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Remind me to S.A.V.E!!!

p/s: the food here in australia actually taste nicer than malaysia, except malaysia local food.
Jap! Korea! Greek! Chinese! Italian! oishi! ichiban! hochak! haochi! yummy! sedap! haoxit! housek!

Regret.

If you were to ask me what will you change if you could turn back time?

At this moment, i would answer you, i want to change my decision.

Seriously. I may have made a wrong choice. It haunts me. I just do not really know why, that decision would turn out to be a mistake. A mistake which lead to loss of something. That something I cherish, I care, and I appreciate. Before that, the consequences flashed to my mind before, but I thought I can get through it. At the end, still I cant escape from it. Maybe that is its fate.

I tried to help to make things better. However it does not turn out to be well. Things do not change. I fed up after few trials. I am so sick with the current. Is it just me? Does anyone feel the same way?

Just let it be. I do not give a damn anymore. I notice my change after this.

I've lost my patience. I become so alert to people who is trying to take advantage of me. More and more evil bubbles popping up surrounding my head. I am becoming a cold-blooded person. More complaints. More curses. I feel like evil horns and tails start growing out from my head and ass.

Other than upset, what more can i do?

p/s: i feel like i am a kid right now, i want my mother and i want to go home.

Rare species.

I had donated another 0.5L of blood to the Australian! WOOOOHOOOOOOOOO
4 months ago, took 6 minutes to collect 0.5L of blood.
4 months after, took 13 minutes to collect 0.5L of blood. arrghhh dunno why so slow. hurt so much. left a very ugly wound.



Yup I am B positive! yay! 8% in the population. Who is with me?

feel hungry easily after donating the blood.

Sorry, I take, can't give, in this matter.

My blog has reached 300 posts since 2007!
could have be more if i blog consistently everday.

People was asking me, why aren't you sharing any of your own stuffs?
Arrr? I share my everything all the time.
Food, clothings, books, stationary.... etc just almost everything, just let me know you need it, you get it.

People asked me again, not those, share some other stuffs.
Arr? like? I am famous being a CNN in the circle of my friends. I just share whatever I know to my close friends. Any kepo stuffs, any hot juicy rumours...... just sit down and have a drink, you will know whatever you want to know. (secrets, mehhhhhhhhhhhh zip zip zip =x I can't afford to let people loses trust on me.)

People bugged me again and again, nahhhh not all those, you never share your personal stuffs.
my god? that really takes me a long time to think what should I tell about myself. Seriously speaking, I don't feel myself has anything special to talk about, compare to others, all i can say, my life til now, it is just a flat stable non-fluctuating straight line, no pretty obvious ups and downs. Nothing interesting to discuss or share about. That's why, always when it comes to my part, i rather just keep quiet.

They asked again, what about the updates for those you told me before?
updates? no updates at the moment dears. For things I don't feel like owning it now, I won't give myself a chance to extend to any further chapters. Out of sight, Out of mind, I keep myself a distance away.

I share all my stuffs to you, but you never share~
please don't blame me. I don't mean to. Just that i find myself has nothing interesting to share. and your stories are way better than mine. I love listening to each and every stories, happenings, events, problems or jokes of yours.

I might be a good listener, but definitely not a good teller.

肉麻。骨痹

农夫-肉麻无罪(粤)

第一次咁需要第一次想
第一次谂起你我会偷笑
第一次咁钟意
第一次咁想呢一次系最后一次

唔驶怕

唔驶怕唔系大话

边个话我系一个Rapper
就唔可以咁肉麻
系我同你嘅Story
太呕嘅话我Sorry
唱啲咁嘅歌都净系想你知
I want you be my lady
我想第时
同你试试用一条锁匙
同一个座厕
我都想可以嗌嗌你妈咪做妈咪
唔再嗌呀Auntie
Oh honey唔好介意
我冇Money只有真挚嘅心意
你嘅心事我通通都想知
我钟意你又点会介意
你似欣宜定柏芝
我要令到你廿四小时
日日都嗌Ki mo chi
我要令到情人节都冇晒意义
唔驶刻意送礼物
因为嗰一日就系我哋嘅每一日
你望住我像河看海
我望住你如何按奈
酒不醉人人自醉
唔通肉麻都有罪
我哋都有过去都有爱过嘅爱侣
唔会抹走你嘅过去
但我会抹走你所有眼泪
再流都系开心嘅眼泪
陪你过以后每一岁一世一对
原来你系我一直搵一直等
一世一齐瞓嗰一个伴侣

如果只可以见你一天
我希望系以后嘅每一天

如果只可以见你两天
我希望系白天同晚天

如果只淮我见你三天
可以系昨天今天明天

只准我见你四天
春天夏天秋天冬天

俾我见你你七日
我希望系星期一到星期日

系咪好娘好核突
我就系胜在够老实
你问最期待边日
我话你听系我嗌你老婆嗰一日
怕你听得太多
太过伤心情歌
咪怪我肉麻过火
我只系想写首歌
记录你同我

哇哇哇~~~甜到流~~~~

Hakuna matata.

WOW. been long never update my blog anymore. WOW the last post was about the easter break trip. my god, 3 months ago. and i shall be able to post about my upcoming trips and happenings in 2 weeks time.

Alright. finally. all those hard, tough, stressful time is over!!! well they were just hibernating until end of july. They gonna climb back to me soon. Anyhow, holiday is the best thing ever. must jaga budget also. the exchange of RM to AUD is getting higher and higher.

missing the time where we were back in kl. after last paper, first thing came into mind must be CHEONG K!. just felt like screaming everything out from your body. then yumcha yumcha yumcha. shop shop shop. Can't really do it here, instead we watched Transformers 2 that afternoon right after our last paper. That AUD14.50 you paid for that movie was damn worth it. The seat is BIG! for my size, i already felt it was big, what about for those who are way smaller size than me, it was HUGE for them. and the screen, way wider than the one we watched in gsc or tgv. and you will never know the cinema here can actually fit so many people at one time one show. 2 times bigger!

back to the movie. oh well well well, still transformers 1 is the best. Wanna know why. go find it out at the cinema. =)

Easter trip!

Back from the easter break trip!
Actually been back since thursday, thing was just came back, the next day straight away mood-big-turnover back to working mood. 3 assignments due + 1 test held on monday!!!
Luckily my groupmates are smart enough, still able to finish all up within 3 days! Hehe thanks for the efforts made.

Alright back to updates.

Never thought of driving in Australia. First thought of just join Monash sport center's day trips to grampians and great ocean road, which cost $95 each. Somehow, ended up organising a self-drive trip to both of those places. 3 days 2 nights trip, including meals, accomodation, transport and fuel, cost us nearly $200.

13 of us. 3 four-wheel cars. 10 drivers. drove about thousand kilometres. the very first time big gang of chemical engineering students (plus 2 mechanical students) hang out together for trip after 2 years studying together in sunway, i suppose.

The one who started the journey for our car,


Ms Hui Hui! don under estimate her. she can handle a big car steadily though she is small in size.

The other occupants of the car would be, those ji zha possssssssssssss

The FOOs, bao and sia


Sia and PekSee.

and of course me!

We are the second car in the line, the last car consists of

SeanL, cathie, weiyun and chyi.

The oddest one, dunno why they got a toyota Rav4 instead of Nissan Xtrail that we both got, unfair!!!! hehe.


jiahan, keeloong, cheeyang and kennethO.

Along the highway. Western highway i think. Toll-free highway.

If you look carefully, u can see white dots, those are sheeps.


jam on the highway at the opposite side.

After 3/4 hours car drive, we reached our

very First Stop, THE GRAMPIANS NATIONAL PARK!

Rushed to Reed Lookout, a balcony to watch fantastic sunset!

clear blue sky with few cloud beds.

That is the legendary balcony.


catch the sun! courtesy: Huihui

We had night walk on the first night.. Unfortunately, the animals seemed not ready to meet us yet. We hardly saw any animals. We learnt how to see star scopes from the guide. The blinking stars in grampians, super duper Charming!!!! you can see southern cross and saggitarius clearly at night.

Second day!

famous Mckenzie's Fall

finally got a spot to take nice picture. u cant imagine how dangerous it was to take this.

Then Beehive Fall.

The fall dried. sad.



Climbed to the top to crave our name on the wall.


We actually climbed halfway of that moutain to crave our names there.


That was our car for this journey. Nissan Xtrail. nice car.

Then, Hollow Moutain.


Rock climbing. hehehe.

Is it a kangaroo or wallaby? I still cant differentiate it.
While driving around grampians, kangaroos, wallabies, rabbits could possibly hop hop hop in front of your car. You even have to break to let them cross the road. So SAFARIIIIIIII.

The place where we stayed for 2 nights. The cabin.


the Beds.



Us at Mckenzie's Fall. Claps for them who able to climb up the big rock!

Third Day,

Second stop, The GREAT OCEAN ROAD!

twelve Apostles. as people say, if you never been here before, you cant consider as been to australia before.

hmmm... einstein they say, with abit more of greyish white on the hair. From my hair pattern, guess you can predict how strong the wind was on that day.


Few of the Apostles. left only 7 to 8 Apostles only arrrrrrrrr. Must go before you cant see them anymore!


Us at Bay of Islands. One of the highlight along great ocean road.

FUN FUN FUN!!!!!!! love the natures alot!!!!! how i wish the beach just beside my house. how i wish the stars just on top of my bed. how i wish the kangaroo will be my pet. I want them allllll.


had fine italian dinner at lygon street in the city. when i got back to the car, I saw something stick on the windscreen.

DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN kena fined!

Actually was very suiiiiiiiii on the third night, more details will be posted up next!
I learnt alot of new things for the first time driving in Australia. need to pay garrr.....

(More nicer pics on Facebook ya. and other participants' album. check them all out ya)

Give a break laaaaaaaaa

wahhhhhhhhhhh finally easter break is here! gonna be free for the whole week!!!!

I am off for self-drive trip starting today!
3 days 2 nights to Grampians National Park and Great Ocean Road.
Victoria Exploration here we go!
=)

Stay tune for nice nice pics the next update.

ohhh Happy Easter to everyone out there.
i bought easter bunny and eggs. hope it lasts til the day going back to kl.

p/s: oh ya here to inform that, daylight saving time finished on the 5th of April. Supposed to be 3 hours apart with Malaysia, but now it is only 2 hours apart. Great! I finally see more people appear online in my msn list at the same time, should find some time to talk to you all.
I just feel my time is not enough, or i slack too much. hmmm...

taaaaaaaaaaaaa. offf we go.